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-chapter 5 'oh yes.i attended the inquiry,' he would say, 'and to this day i haven't left off wonderingwhy i went. i am willing to believe each of us has aguardian angel, if you fellows will concede to me that each of us has a familiar devilas well. i want you to own up, because i don't liketo feel exceptional in any way, and i know i have him--the devil, i mean.i haven't seen him, of course, but i go upon circumstantial evidence. he is there right enough, and, beingmalicious, he lets me in for that kind of

thing.what kind of thing, you ask? why, the inquiry thing, the yellow-dogthing--you wouldn't think a mangy, native tyke would be allowed to trip up people inthe verandah of a magistrate's court, would you?--the kind of thing that by devious, unexpected, truly diabolical ways causes meto run up against men with soft spots, with hard spots, with hidden plague spots, byjove! and loosens their tongues at the sight of me for their infernal confidences; as though, forsooth, i had no confidencesto make to myself, as though--god help me!- -i didn't have enough confidentialinformation about myself to harrow my own

soul till the end of my appointed time. and what i have done to be thus favoured iwant to know. i declare i am as full of my own concernsas the next man, and i have as much memory as the average pilgrim in this valley, soyou see i am not particularly fit to be a receptacle of confessions. then why?can't tell--unless it be to make time pass away after dinner. charley, my dear chap, your dinner wasextremely good, and in consequence these men here look upon a quiet rubber as atumultuous occupation.

they wallow in your good chairs and thinkto themselves, "hang exertion. let that marlow talk."'talk? so be it. and it's easy enough to talk of master jim,after a good spread, two hundred feet above the sea-level, with a box of decent cigarshandy, on a blessed evening of freshness and starlight that would make the best of us forget we are only on sufferance hereand got to pick our way in cross lights, watching every precious minute and everyirremediable step, trusting we shall manage yet to go out decently in the end--but not

so sure of it after all--and with dashedlittle help to expect from those we touch elbows with right and left. of course there are men here and there towhom the whole of life is like an after- dinner hour with a cigar; easy, pleasant,empty, perhaps enlivened by some fable of strife to be forgotten before the end is told--before the end is told--even if therehappens to be any end to it. 'my eyes met his for the first time at thatinquiry. you must know that everybody connected inany way with the sea was there, because the affair had been notorious for days, eversince that mysterious cable message came

from aden to start us all cackling. i say mysterious, because it was so in asense though it contained a naked fact, about as naked and ugly as a fact can wellbe. the whole waterside talked of nothing else. first thing in the morning as i wasdressing in my state-room, i would hear through the bulkhead my parsee dubashjabbering about the patna with the steward, while he drank a cup of tea, by favour, inthe pantry. no sooner on shore i would meet someacquaintance, and the first remark would be, "did you ever hear of anything to beatthis?" and according to his kind the man

would smile cynically, or look sad, or letout a swear or two. complete strangers would accost each otherfamiliarly, just for the sake of easing their minds on the subject: everyconfounded loafer in the town came in for a harvest of drinks over this affair: you heard of it in the harbour office, at everyship-broker's, at your agent's, from whites, from natives, from half-castes,from the very boatmen squatting half naked on the stone steps as you went up--by jove! there was some indignation, not a fewjokes, and no end of discussions as to what had become of them, you know.

this went on for a couple of weeks or more,and the opinion that whatever was mysterious in this affair would turn out tobe tragic as well, began to prevail, when one fine morning, as i was standing in the shade by the steps of the harbour office,i perceived four men walking towards me along the quay. i wondered for a while where that queer lothad sprung from, and suddenly, i may say, i shouted to myself, "here they are!" 'there they were, sure enough, three ofthem as large as life, and one much larger of girth than any living man has a right tobe, just landed with a good breakfast

inside of them from an outward-bound dale line steamer that had come in about an hourafter sunrise. there could be no mistake; i spotted thejolly skipper of the patna at the first glance: the fattest man in the wholeblessed tropical belt clear round that good old earth of ours. moreover, nine months or so before, i hadcome across him in samarang. his steamer was loading in the roads, andhe was abusing the tyrannical institutions of the german empire, and soaking himselfin beer all day long and day after day in de jongh's back-shop, till de jongh, who

charged a guilder for every bottle withoutas much as the quiver of an eyelid, would beckon me aside, and, with his littleleathery face all puckered up, declare confidentially, "business is business, butthis man, captain, he make me very sick. tfui!"'i was looking at him from the shade. he was hurrying on a little in advance, andthe sunlight beating on him brought out his bulk in a startling way.he made me think of a trained baby elephant walking on hind-legs. he was extravagantly gorgeous too--got upin a soiled sleeping-suit, bright green and deep orange vertical stripes, with a pairof ragged straw slippers on his bare feet,

and somebody's cast-off pith hat, very dirty and two sizes too small for him, tiedup with a manilla rope-yarn on the top of his big head. you understand a man like that hasn't theghost of a chance when it comes to borrowing clothes.very well. on he came in hot haste, without a lookright or left, passed within three feet of me, and in the innocence of his heart wenton pelting upstairs into the harbour office to make his deposition, or report, orwhatever you like to call it. 'it appears he addressed himself in thefirst instance to the principal shipping-

master. archie ruthvel had just come in, and, ashis story goes, was about to begin his arduous day by giving a dressing-down tohis chief clerk. some of you might have known him--anobliging little portuguese half-caste with a miserably skinny neck, and always on thehop to get something from the shipmasters in the way of eatables--a piece of salt pork, a bag of biscuits, a few potatoes, orwhat not. one voyage, i recollect, i tipped him alive sheep out of the remnant of my sea- stock: not that i wanted him to do anythingfor me--he couldn't, you know--but because

his childlike belief in the sacred right toperquisites quite touched my heart. it was so strong as to be almost beautiful.the race--the two races rather--and the climate ... however, never mind.i know where i have a friend for life. 'well, ruthvel says he was giving him asevere lecture--on official morality, i suppose--when he heard a kind of subduedcommotion at his back, and turning his head he saw, in his own words, something round and enormous, resembling a sixteen-hundred-weight sugar-hogshead wrapped in striped flannelette, up-ended in the middle of thelarge floor space in the office.

he declares he was so taken aback that forquite an appreciable time he did not realise the thing was alive, and sat stillwondering for what purpose and by what means that object had been transported infront of his desk. the archway from the ante-room was crowdedwith punkah-pullers, sweepers, police peons, the coxswain and crew of the harboursteam-launch, all craning their necks and almost climbing on each other's backs. quite a riot. by that time the fellow had managed to tugand jerk his hat clear of his head, and advanced with slight bows at ruthvel, whotold me the sight was so discomposing that

for some time he listened, quite unable tomake out what that apparition wanted. it spoke in a voice harsh and lugubriousbut intrepid, and little by little it dawned upon archie that this was adevelopment of the patna case. he says that as soon as he understood whoit was before him he felt quite unwell-- archie is so sympathetic and easily upset--but pulled himself together and shouted "stop! i can't listen to you.you must go to the master attendant. i can't possibly listen to you.captain elliot is the man you want to see. this way, this way."

he jumped up, ran round that long counter,pulled, shoved: the other let him, surprised but obedient at first, and onlyat the door of the private office some sort of animal instinct made him hang back andsnort like a frightened bullock. "look here! what's up?let go! look here!" archie flung open the door withoutknocking. "the master of the patna, sir," he shouts."go in, captain." he saw the old man lift his head from somewriting so sharp that his nose-nippers fell off, banged the door to, and fled to hisdesk, where he had some papers waiting for

his signature: but he says the row that burst out in there was so awful that hecouldn't collect his senses sufficiently to remember the spelling of his own name.archie's the most sensitive shipping-master in the two hemispheres. he declares he felt as though he had throwna man to a hungry lion. no doubt the noise was great. i heard it down below, and i have everyreason to believe it was heard clear across the esplanade as far as the band-stand. old father elliot had a great stock ofwords and could shout--and didn't mind who

he shouted at either.he would have shouted at the viceroy himself. as he used to tell me: "i am as high as ican get; my pension is safe. i've a few pounds laid by, and if theydon't like my notions of duty i would just as soon go home as not. i am an old man, and i have always spokenmy mind. all i care for now is to see my girlsmarried before i die." he was a little crazy on that point. his three daughters were awfully nice,though they resembled him amazingly, and on

the mornings he woke up with a gloomy viewof their matrimonial prospects the office would read it in his eye and tremble, because, they said, he was sure to havesomebody for breakfast. however, that morning he did not eat therenegade, but, if i may be allowed to carry on the metaphor, chewed him up very small,so to speak, and--ah! ejected him again. 'thus in a very few moments i saw hismonstrous bulk descend in haste and stand still on the outer steps. he had stopped close to me for the purposeof profound meditation: his large purple cheeks quivered.he was biting his thumb, and after a while

noticed me with a sidelong vexed look. the other three chaps that had landed withhim made a little group waiting at some distance. there was a sallow-faced, mean little chapwith his arm in a sling, and a long individual in a blue flannel coat, as dryas a chip and no stouter than a broomstick, with drooping grey moustaches, who lookedabout him with an air of jaunty imbecility. the third was an upstanding, broad-shouldered youth, with his hands in his pockets, turning his back on the other twowho appeared to be talking together earnestly.

he stared across the empty esplanade. a ramshackle gharry, all dust and venetianblinds, pulled up short opposite the group, and the driver, throwing up his right footover his knee, gave himself up to the critical examination of his toes. the young chap, making no movement, noteven stirring his head, just stared into the sunshine.this was my first view of jim. he looked as unconcerned and unapproachableas only the young can look. there he stood, clean-limbed, clean-faced,firm on his feet, as promising a boy as the sun ever shone on; and, looking at him,knowing all he knew and a little more too,

i was as angry as though i had detected him trying to get something out of me by falsepretences. he had no business to look so sound. i thought to myself--well, if this sort cango wrong like that...and i felt as though i could fling down my hat and dance on itfrom sheer mortification, as i once saw the skipper of an italian barque do because his duffer of a mate got into a mess with hisanchors when making a flying moor in a roadstead full of ships. i asked myself, seeing him there apparentlyso much at ease--is he silly? is he

callous?he seemed ready to start whistling a tune. and note, i did not care a rap about thebehaviour of the other two. their persons somehow fitted the tale thatwas public property, and was going to be the subject of an official inquiry. "that old mad rogue upstairs called me ahound," said the captain of the patna. i can't tell whether he recognised me--irather think he did; but at any rate our glances met. he glared--i smiled; hound was the verymildest epithet that had reached me through the open window."did he?"

i said from some strange inability to holdmy tongue. he nodded, bit his thumb again, swore underhis breath: then lifting his head and looking at me with sullen and passionateimpudence--"bah! the pacific is big, my friendt. you damned englishmen can do your worst; iknow where there's plenty room for a man like me: i am well aguaindt in apia, inhonolulu, in ..." he paused reflectively, while withouteffort i could depict to myself the sort of people he was "aguaindt" with in thoseplaces. i won't make a secret of it that i had been"aguaindt" with not a few of that sort

myself. there are times when a man must act asthough life were equally sweet in any company. i've known such a time, and, what's more,i shan't now pretend to pull a long face over my necessity, because a good many of thatbad company from want of moral--moral--what shall i say?--posture, or from some other equally profound cause, were twice asinstructive and twenty times more amusing than the usual respectable thief ofcommerce you fellows ask to sit at your table without any real necessity--from

habit, from cowardice, from good-nature,from a hundred sneaking and inadequate reasons. '"you englishmen are all rogues," went onmy patriotic flensborg or stettin australian. i really don't recollect now what decentlittle port on the shores of the baltic was defiled by being the nest of that preciousbird. "what are you to shout? eh?you tell me? you no better than other people, and thatold rogue he make gottam fuss with me."

his thick carcass trembled on its legs thatwere like a pair of pillars; it trembled from head to foot. "that's what you english always make--makea tam' fuss--for any little thing, because i was not born in your tam' country.take away my certificate. take it. i don't want the certificate.a man like me don't want your verfluchte certificate.i shpit on it." he spat. "i vill an amerigan citizen begome," hecried, fretting and fuming and shuffling

his feet as if to free his ankles from someinvisible and mysterious grasp that would not let him get away from that spot. he made himself so warm that the top of hisbullet head positively smoked. nothing mysterious prevented me from goingaway: curiosity is the most obvious of sentiments, and it held me there to see theeffect of a full information upon that young fellow who, hands in pockets, and turning his back upon the sidewalk, gazedacross the grass-plots of the esplanade at the yellow portico of the malabar hotelwith the air of a man about to go for a walk as soon as his friend is ready.

that's how he looked, and it was odious. i waited to see him overwhelmed,confounded, pierced through and through, squirming like an impaled beetle--and i washalf afraid to see it too--if you understand what i mean. nothing more awful than to watch a man whohas been found out, not in a crime but in a more than criminal weakness. the commonest sort of fortitude prevents usfrom becoming criminals in a legal sense; it is from weakness unknown, but perhapssuspected, as in some parts of the world you suspect a deadly snake in every bush--

from weakness that may lie hidden, watchedor unwatched, prayed against or manfully scorned, repressed or maybe ignored morethan half a lifetime, not one of us is safe. we are snared into doing things for whichwe get called names, and things for which we get hanged, and yet the spirit may wellsurvive--survive the condemnation, survive the halter, by jove! and there are things--they look smallenough sometimes too--by which some of us are totally and completely undone.i watched the youngster there. i liked his appearance; i knew hisappearance; he came from the right place;

he was one of us. he stood there for all the parentage of hiskind, for men and women by no means clever or amusing, but whose very existence isbased upon honest faith, and upon the instinct of courage. i don't mean military courage, or civilcourage, or any special kind of courage. i mean just that inborn ability to looktemptations straight in the face--a readiness unintellectual enough, goodnessknows, but without pose--a power of resistance, don't you see, ungracious if you like, but priceless--an unthinking andblessed stiffness before the outward and

inward terrors, before the might of natureand the seductive corruption of men--backed by a faith invulnerable to the strength of facts, to the contagion of example, to thesolicitation of ideas. hang ideas! they are tramps, vagabonds, knocking at theback-door of your mind, each taking a little of your substance, each carryingaway some crumb of that belief in a few simple notions you must cling to if you want to live decently and would like to dieeasy! 'this has nothing to do with jim, directly;only he was outwardly so typical of that

good, stupid kind we like to feel marchingright and left of us in life, of the kind that is not disturbed by the vagaries of intelligence and the perversions of--ofnerves, let us say. he was the kind of fellow you would, on thestrength of his looks, leave in charge of the deck--figuratively and professionallyspeaking. i say i would, and i ought to know. haven't i turned out youngsters enough inmy time, for the service of the red rag, to the craft of the sea, to the craft whosewhole secret could be expressed in one short sentence, and yet must be driven

afresh every day into young heads till itbecomes the component part of every waking thought--till it is present in every dreamof their young sleep! the sea has been good to me, but when iremember all these boys that passed through my hands, some grown up now and somedrowned by this time, but all good stuff for the sea, i don't think i have donebadly by it either. were i to go home to-morrow, i bet thatbefore two days passed over my head some sunburnt young chief mate would overtake meat some dock gateway or other, and a fresh deep voice speaking above my hat would ask:"don't you remember me, sir? why! little so-and-so.such and such a ship.

it was my first voyage." and i would remember a bewildered littleshaver, no higher than the back of this chair, with a mother and perhaps a bigsister on the quay, very quiet but too upset to wave their handkerchiefs at the ship that glides out gently between thepier-heads; or perhaps some decent middle- aged father who had come early with his boyto see him off, and stays all the morning, because he is interested in the windlass apparently, and stays too long, and has gotto scramble ashore at last with no time at all to say good-bye.

the mud pilot on the poop sings out to mein a drawl, "hold her with the check line for a moment, mister mate.there's a gentleman wants to get ashore....up with you, sir. nearly got carried off to talcahuano,didn't you? now's your time; easy does it....all right.slack away again forward there." the tugs, smoking like the pit ofperdition, get hold and churn the old river into fury; the gentleman ashore is dustinghis knees--the benevolent steward has shied his umbrella after him. all very proper.

he has offered his bit of sacrifice to thesea, and now he may go home pretending he thinks nothing of it; and the littlewilling victim shall be very sea-sick before next morning. by-and-by, when he has learned all thelittle mysteries and the one great secret of the craft, he shall be fit to live ordie as the sea may decree; and the man who had taken a hand in this fool game, in which the sea wins every toss, will bepleased to have his back slapped by a heavy young hand, and to hear a cheery sea-puppyvoice: "do you remember me, sir? the little so-and-so."

'i tell you this is good; it tells you thatonce in your life at least you had gone the right way to work. i have been thus slapped, and i havewinced, for the slap was heavy, and i have glowed all day long and gone to bed feelingless lonely in the world by virtue of that hearty thump. don't i remember the little so-and-so's!i tell you i ought to know the right kind of looks. i would have trusted the deck to thatyoungster on the strength of a single glance, and gone to sleep with both eyes--and, by jove! it wouldn't have been safe.

there are depths of horror in that thought. he looked as genuine as a new sovereign,but there was some infernal alloy in his metal.how much? the least thing--the least drop ofsomething rare and accursed; the least drop!--but he made you--standing there withhis don't-care-hang air--he made you wonder whether perchance he were nothing more rarethan brass. 'i couldn't believe it.i tell you i wanted to see him squirm for the honour of the craft. the other two no-account chaps spottedtheir captain, and began to move slowly

towards us. they chatted together as they strolled, andi did not care any more than if they had not been visible to the naked eye.they grinned at each other--might have been exchanging jokes, for all i know. i saw that with one of them it was a caseof a broken arm; and as to the long individual with grey moustaches he was thechief engineer, and in various ways a pretty notorious personality. they were nobodies.they approached. the skipper gazed in an inanimate waybetween his feet: he seemed to be swollen

to an unnatural size by some awful disease,by the mysterious action of an unknown poison. he lifted his head, saw the two before himwaiting, opened his mouth with an extraordinary, sneering contortion of hispuffed face--to speak to them, i suppose-- and then a thought seemed to strike him. his thick, purplish lips came togetherwithout a sound, he went off in a resolute waddle to the gharry and began to jerk atthe door-handle with such a blind brutality of impatience that i expected to see the whole concern overturned on its side, ponyand all.

the driver, shaken out of his meditationover the sole of his foot, displayed at once all the signs of intense terror, andheld with both hands, looking round from his box at this vast carcass forcing itsway into his conveyance. the little machine shook and rockedtumultuously, and the crimson nape of that lowered neck, the size of those strainingthighs, the immense heaving of that dingy, striped green-and-orange back, the whole burrowing effort of that gaudy and sordidmass, troubled one's sense of probability with a droll and fearsome effect, like oneof those grotesque and distinct visions that scare and fascinate one in a fever.

he disappeared. i half expected the roof to split in two,the little box on wheels to burst open in the manner of a ripe cotton-pod--but itonly sank with a click of flattened springs, and suddenly one venetian blindrattled down. his shoulders reappeared, jammed in thesmall opening; his head hung out, distended and tossing like a captive balloon,perspiring, furious, spluttering. he reached for the gharry-wallah withvicious flourishes of a fist as dumpy and red as a lump of raw meat.he roared at him to be off, to go on. where?

into the pacific, perhaps.the driver lashed; the pony snorted, reared once, and darted off at a gallop.where? to apia? to honolulu?he had 6000 miles of tropical belt to disport himself in, and i did not hear theprecise address. a snorting pony snatched him into"ewigkeit" in the twinkling of an eye, and i never saw him again; and, what's more, idon't know of anybody that ever had a glimpse of him after he departed from my knowledge sitting inside a ramshacklelittle gharry that fled round the corner in

a white smother of dust. he departed, disappeared, vanished,absconded; and absurdly enough it looked as though he had taken that gharry with him,for never again did i come across a sorrel pony with a slit ear and a lackadaisicaltamil driver afflicted by a sore foot. the pacific is indeed big; but whether hefound a place for a display of his talents in it or not, the fact remains he had flowninto space like a witch on a broomstick. the little chap with his arm in a slingstarted to run after the carriage, bleating, "captain!i say, captain! i sa-a-ay!"--but after a few steps stoppedshort, hung his head, and walked back

slowly.at the sharp rattle of the wheels the young fellow spun round where he stood. he made no other movement, no gesture, nosign, and remained facing in the new direction after the gharry had swung out ofsight. 'all this happened in much less time thanit takes to tell, since i am trying to interpret for you into slow speech theinstantaneous effect of visual impressions. next moment the half-caste clerk, sent byarchie to look a little after the poor castaways of the patna, came upon thescene. he ran out eager and bareheaded, lookingright and left, and very full of his

mission. it was doomed to be a failure as far as theprincipal person was concerned, but he approached the others with fussyimportance, and, almost immediately, found himself involved in a violent altercation with the chap that carried his arm in asling, and who turned out to be extremely anxious for a row.he wasn't going to be ordered about--"not he, b'gosh." he wouldn't be terrified with a pack oflies by a cocky half-bred little quill- driver.

he was not going to be bullied by "noobject of that sort," if the story were true "ever so"!he bawled his wish, his desire, his determination to go to bed. "if you weren't a god-forsaken portuguee,"i heard him yell, "you would know that the hospital is the right place for me." he pushed the fist of his sound arm underthe other's nose; a crowd began to collect; the half-caste, flustered, but doing hisbest to appear dignified, tried to explain his intentions. i went away without waiting to see the end.

'but it so happened that i had a man in thehospital at the time, and going there to see about him the day before the opening ofthe inquiry, i saw in the white men's ward that little chap tossing on his back, withhis arm in splints, and quite light-headed. to my great surprise the other one, thelong individual with drooping white moustache, had also found his way there. i remembered i had seen him slinking awayduring the quarrel, in a half prance, half shuffle, and trying very hard not to lookscared. he was no stranger to the port, it seems,and in his distress was able to make tracks straight for mariani's billiard-room andgrog-shop near the bazaar.

that unspeakable vagabond, mariani, who hadknown the man and had ministered to his vices in one or two other places, kissedthe ground, in a manner of speaking, before him, and shut him up with a supply of bottles in an upstairs room of his infamoushovel. it appears he was under some hazyapprehension as to his personal safety, and wished to be concealed. however, mariani told me a long time after(when he came on board one day to dun my steward for the price of some cigars) thathe would have done more for him without asking any questions, from gratitude for

some unholy favour received very many yearsago--as far as i could make out. he thumped twice his brawny chest, rolledenormous black-and-white eyes glistening with tears: "antonio never forget--antonionever forget!" what was the precise nature of the immoralobligation i never learned, but be it what it may, he had every facility given him toremain under lock and key, with a chair, a table, a mattress in a corner, and a litter of fallen plaster on the floor, in anirrational state of funk, and keeping up his pecker with such tonics as marianidispensed. this lasted till the evening of the thirdday, when, after letting out a few horrible

screams, he found himself compelled to seeksafety in flight from a legion of centipedes. he burst the door open, made one leap fordear life down the crazy little stairway, landed bodily on mariani's stomach, pickedhimself up, and bolted like a rabbit into the streets. the police plucked him off a garbage-heapin the early morning. at first he had a notion they were carryinghim off to be hanged, and fought for liberty like a hero, but when i sat down byhis bed he had been very quiet for two days.

his lean bronzed head, with whitemoustaches, looked fine and calm on the pillow, like the head of a war-worn soldierwith a child-like soul, had it not been for a hint of spectral alarm that lurked in the blank glitter of his glance, resembling anondescript form of a terror crouching silently behind a pane of glass. he was so extremely calm, that i began toindulge in the eccentric hope of hearing something explanatory of the famous affairfrom his point of view. why i longed to go grubbing into thedeplorable details of an occurrence which, after all, concerned me no more than as amember of an obscure body of men held

together by a community of inglorious toil and by fidelity to a certain standard ofconduct, i can't explain. you may call it an unhealthy curiosity ifyou like; but i have a distinct notion i wished to find something. perhaps, unconsciously, i hoped i wouldfind that something, some profound and redeeming cause, some merciful explanation,some convincing shadow of an excuse. i see well enough now that i hoped for theimpossible--for the laying of what is the most obstinate ghost of man's creation, ofthe uneasy doubt uprising like a mist, secret and gnawing like a worm, and more

chilling than the certitude of death--thedoubt of the sovereign power enthroned in a fixed standard of conduct. it is the hardest thing to stumble against;it is the thing that breeds yelling panics and good little quiet villainies; it's thetrue shadow of calamity. did i believe in a miracle? and why did idesire it so ardently? was it for my own sake that i wished tofind some shadow of an excuse for that young fellow whom i had never seen before,but whose appearance alone added a touch of personal concern to the thoughts suggested by the knowledge of his weakness--made it athing of mystery and terror--like a hint of

a destructive fate ready for us all whoseyouth--in its day--had resembled his youth? i fear that such was the secret motive ofmy prying. i was, and no mistake, looking for amiracle. the only thing that at this distance oftime strikes me as miraculous is the extent of my imbecility. i positively hoped to obtain from thatbattered and shady invalid some exorcism against the ghost of doubt. i must have been pretty desperate too, for,without loss of time, after a few indifferent and friendly sentences which heanswered with languid readiness, just as

any decent sick man would do, i produced the word patna wrapped up in a delicatequestion as in a wisp of floss silk. i was delicate selfishly; i did not want tostartle him; i had no solicitude for him; i was not furious with him and sorry for him:his experience was of no importance, his redemption would have had no point for me. he had grown old in minor iniquities, andcould no longer inspire aversion or pity. he repeated patna? interrogatively, seemedto make a short effort of memory, and said: "quite right. i am an old stager out here.i saw her go down."

i made ready to vent my indignation at sucha stupid lie, when he added smoothly, "she was full of reptiles." 'this made me pause.what did he mean? the unsteady phantom of terror behind hisglassy eyes seemed to stand still and look into mine wistfully. "they turned me out of my bunk in themiddle watch to look at her sinking," he pursued in a reflective tone.his voice sounded alarmingly strong all at once. i was sorry for my folly.

there was no snowy-winged coif of a nursingsister to be seen flitting in the perspective of the ward; but away in themiddle of a long row of empty iron bedsteads an accident case from some ship in the roads sat up brown and gaunt with awhite bandage set rakishly on the forehead. suddenly my interesting invalid shot out anarm thin like a tentacle and clawed my shoulder. "only my eyes were good enough to see.i am famous for my eyesight. that's why they called me, i expect. none of them was quick enough to see hergo, but they saw that she was gone right

enough, and sang out together--likethis."...a wolfish howl searched the very recesses of my soul. "oh! make 'im dry up," whined the accidentcase irritably. "you don't believe me, i suppose," went onthe other, with an air of ineffable conceit. "i tell you there are no such eyes as minethis side of the persian gulf. look under the bed."'of course i stooped instantly. i defy anybody not to have done so. "what can you see?" he asked."nothing," i said, feeling awfully ashamed

of myself.he scrutinised my face with wild and withering contempt. "just so," he said, "but if i were to looki could see--there's no eyes like mine, i tell you." again he clawed, pulling at me downwards inhis eagerness to relieve himself by a confidential communication."millions of pink toads. there's no eyes like mine. millions of pink toads.it's worse than seeing a ship sink. i could look at sinking ships and smoke mypipe all day long.

why don't they give me back my pipe? i would get a smoke while i watched thesetoads. the ship was full of them.they've got to be watched, you know." he winked facetiously. the perspiration dripped on him off myhead, my drill coat clung to my wet back: the afternoon breeze swept impetuously overthe row of bedsteads, the stiff folds of curtains stirred perpendicularly, rattling on brass rods, the covers of empty bedsblew about noiselessly near the bare floor all along the line, and i shivered to thevery marrow.

the soft wind of the tropics played in thatnaked ward as bleak as a winter's gale in an old barn at home. "don't you let him start his hollering,mister," hailed from afar the accident case in a distressed angry shout that cameringing between the walls like a quavering call down a tunnel. the clawing hand hauled at my shoulder; heleered at me knowingly. "the ship was full of them, you know, andwe had to clear out on the strict q.t.," he whispered with extreme rapidity. "all pink.all pink--as big as mastiffs, with an eye

on the top of the head and claws all roundtheir ugly mouths. ough! ough!" quick jerks as of galvanic shocks disclosedunder the flat coverlet the outlines of meagre and agitated legs; he let go myshoulder and reached after something in the air; his body trembled tensely like a released harp-string; and while i lookeddown, the spectral horror in him broke through his glassy gaze. instantly his face of an old soldier, withits noble and calm outlines, became

decomposed before my eyes by the corruptionof stealthy cunning, of an abominable caution and of desperate fear. he restrained a cry--"ssh! what are theydoing now down there?" he asked, pointing to the floor with fantastic precautions ofvoice and gesture, whose meaning, borne upon my mind in a lurid flash, made me verysick of my cleverness. "they are all asleep," i answered, watchinghim narrowly. that was it. that's what he wanted to hear; these werethe exact words that could calm him. he drew a long breath."ssh!

quiet, steady. i am an old stager out here.i know them brutes. bash in the head of the first that stirs.there's too many of them, and she won't swim more than ten minutes." he panted again."hurry up," he yelled suddenly, and went on in a steady scream: "they are all awake--millions of them. they are trampling on me! wait!oh, wait! i'll smash them in heaps like flies.wait for me!

help! h-e-elp!"an interminable and sustained howl completed my discomfiture. i saw in the distance the accident caseraise deplorably both his hands to his bandaged head; a dresser, aproned to thechin showed himself in the vista of the ward, as if seen in the small end of atelescope. i confessed myself fairly routed, andwithout more ado, stepping out through one of the long windows, escaped into theoutside gallery. the howl pursued me like a vengeance.

i turned into a deserted landing, andsuddenly all became very still and quiet around me, and i descended the bare andshiny staircase in a silence that enabled me to compose my distracted thoughts. down below i met one of the residentsurgeons who was crossing the courtyard and stopped me."been to see your man, captain? i think we may let him go to-morrow. these fools have no notion of taking careof themselves, though. i say, we've got the chief engineer of thatpilgrim ship here. a curious case.

d.t.'s of the worst kind.he has been drinking hard in that greek's or italian's grog-shop for three days.what can you expect? four bottles of that kind of brandy a day,i am told. wonderful, if true.sheeted with boiler-iron inside i should think. the head, ah! the head, of course, gone,but the curious part is there's some sort of method in his raving.i am trying to find out. most unusual--that thread of logic in sucha delirium. traditionally he ought to see snakes, buthe doesn't.

good old tradition's at a discountnowadays. eh!his--er--visions are batrachian. ha! ha! no, seriously, i never remember being sointerested in a case of jim-jams before. he ought to be dead, don't you know, aftersuch a festive experiment. oh! he is a tough object. four-and-twenty years of the tropics too.you ought really to take a peep at him. noble-looking old boozer.most extraordinary man i ever met-- medically, of course.

won't you?"'i have been all along exhibiting the usual polite signs of interest, but now assumingan air of regret i murmured of want of time, and shook hands in a hurry. "i say," he cried after me; "he can'tattend that inquiry. is his evidence material, you think?"'"not in the least," i called back from the gateway.'

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